Sunday Jan 30,2011

Well this last week I started a weightloss competition at my office. I know that it is going to be really good for me. I have to loose this weight so why not see if I can win some money to. Hopefully I wont loose money. But that is how it goes.
I have to say that I am very proud of how my first week has gone. I have had no real sodas. We are trying RC Cola Zero's. They are not bad at all. We have been eating a lot more fruit and veggies this week to. I kinda splurged yesterday. Matt and I went out to dinner. It was so good. Applebees Stuffed Meatballs are the bomb. Also this week in reading the book Made to Crave be Lisa Terkurst I was challenged to change my thinking. Instead of thinking about all the things that I cant have to start thinking about all the things that I can. And to not look at my self in a negetive way. Thinking that I was the Fat Girl. But instead to start thinking of myself as the victorious child of God, the set free child of God and so on.... The biggest thing that I have started to say is that I am made for More. I cant tell you how much of a difference that has made in my life just this week. I have definately felt more empowered this week.


Well Dad is not doing very good. We went to see him yesterday. Mom says that Dad is starting to have a hard time mentally. I dont really know how to describe it. The Dr. is sure that the cancer is in his brain. They were playing Dominoes the other day and mom said that Dad was real slow. He could still add faster than any of them but it was like he didnt know what to play. Dad is also having extremely bad headaches. I hate that. Mom has friends from high school in this weekend. I am so glad that they are there. They are so funny and right now we all need a good laugh especially Mom. We were going to go back out to see them again today but really feel like we need to go to lifehouse this week. Reality of Dad's situation is getting more and more real everytime that we go to see him. Every week it is harder to go and harder to leave. I am so sad. It is not fair. I am going to miss him so much. It is so hard to think about how life will be without him. I wont be able to call him for advise on so many things. I love him so much. I wish this was all a dream. I truly wish that the end would come soon. So he wont have to suffer. But at the same time I dont want him to go. I need him.

Right now we are working to get my schedule at worked changed so that I will only be working 8 hours a day instead of 9. I know that they hour does not seem like a lot but right now it is. I will no longer get every other friday off but I will get home at a decent hour. I am hoping that this will help me to start feeling better. If I feel like I have a little more time for myself.

Bailey is at moms again this week. We are wanting her to spend as much time as she can with her papaw. She is so little and does not understand what all is going on. We have tried so hard to prepare her for this. All we can do now is pray and ask God to help her.

Matt and I have gotten the books that we need to read to be lifehouse leaders and have started on those. Last night we were riding home and I really felt that we were not ready to be lifehouse leaders. I was talking me and Matt both out of it. By the time that dinner was over I had rationalized the whole thing. But this morning God totally rocked both of our worlds. The message that God gave us through Chris was that we should assume that God was calling us to do it unless he specifically says wait. And for us I dont think that this had been the case. So here we GO!

In other news we are really looking forward to church next week. It is going to be really good. It is National Porn Sunday. We will be joining a church called TrippleXChurch http://xxxchurch.com/ via video. I am excited about the awareness that this will bring to so many families. I pray that walls and strongholds that have been in people lives will be broken. God can heal families. We know cause he has healed ours. So if you are in lubbock check it out. Experience life church @ the Sportsplex. Sat 5:00,6:30 Sunday 8:30,10:00, & 11:00.